“LESSON #8″
Charles has a book…
Charles shows them his crayons…
Marie has the ball of Charles…
Good for Marie…
Charles misses his ball..

George misses Marie.
George misses a lot.
George is alone.

George looks around.
He sees the park.
It is depressing.
George looks ahead.
George sees the dark.
George feels afraid.
Where are the people out strolling on Sunday?

George look within:
George is adrift.
George goes by guessing.
George looks behind:
He had a gift.
When did it fade?
You wanted people out strolling on Sunday-
Sorry, Marie…

See George remember how George used to be,
Stretching his vision in every direction.
See George attempting to see a connection.
When all he can see,
Is maybe a tree-
The family tree-
Sorry, Marie…

George is afraid.
George sees the park.
George sees it dying.
George too may fade.
Leaving no mark.
Just passing through.
Just like the people out strolling on Sunday…

George looks around.
George is alone.
No use denying.
George is aground.
George has outgrown
What he can do.
George would have liked to see people out strolling on Sunday!

But through the echo of these words and my feelings, I could feel hope and excitement stirring, because I knew what was coming after…

“Move On”

Dot

Are you working on something new?

George

No

Dot

That is not like you, George

George

I’ve nothing to say

Dot

You have many things

George

Well, nothing that’s not been said

Dot

Said by you, though. George

George

I do not know where to go

Dot

And nor did I

George

I want to make things that count, Things that will be new…

Dot

I did what I had to do…

George

What am I to do?

Dot

Move on…

Stop worrying where you’re going- Move on

If you can know where you’re going You’ve gone

Just keep moving on

I chose, and my world was shaken- So what?

The choice may have been mistaken, The choosing was not

You have to move on

Look at what you want, Not at where you are, Not at what you’ll be-

Look at all the things you’ve done for me

Opened up my eyes, Taught me how to see, Notice every tree-

George

Notice every tree…

Dot

Understand the light-

George

…Understand the light…

Dot

Concentrate on now-

George

I want to move on I want to explore the light

I want to know how to get through, Through to something new,

Something of my own-

Both

Move on Move on

Dot

Stop worrying it your vision Is new

Let others make that decision- They usually do

You keep moving on

George

Something in the light, Something in the sky, In the grass, Up behind the trees… Things I hadn’t looked at Till now Flower in your hat. And your smile And the color of your hair.

Dot

Look at what you’ve done, Then at what you want, Not at where you are, What you’ll be Look at all the things You gave to me Let me give to you Something in return I would be so pleased…

George

And the way you catch the light And the care And the feeling And the life Moving on

Dot

We’ve always belonged Together!

Both

We will always belong Together!

Dot

Just keep moving on Anything you do Let it come from you Then it will be new Give us more to see…

You might say that Dot is my angel right now. Stephen Sondheim wrote this musical years before I was even born, had it recorded for TV, and then waited for me to find it, and then waited a few years more so I could be in the right life stage, just so I could have that moment on the train. You’re not a New Yorker until you’ve cried on the subway. Hope this all makes sense, in some crazy-musical-theater-nerd way.

So much of my growth has been facilitated by not only the principles but the lovely people I have met through my church. Their guidance has helped that still, small voice become louder in my own head. I was blessed to an extraordinary degree to find my home here, and I don’t know if I can really begin to express my gratitude.

I guess I just wanted to say that it’s really helped me, having a place to go to hear about New Thought, and to be surrounded by people who LIVE this stuff day in and day out. If you don’t have a community to support you on your journey, I seriously recommend doing some research and trying out some different churches (or spiritual centers, if you prefer). There are a multitude of options, and when you find the right community, miracles are bound to follow.

I’m bumping up against wanting to make a radical change, while at the same time admitting certain truths about myself. Can I justify making this change if I know that chances are good that I’ll want to make a similar change again… and again… and again? Is it better to just STICK with things the way they are, and try to ride out the discomfort of my current situation? Could I BE anymore vague right now?

I guess it’s enough to say I’m trying to move into the next phase of my life. I’m probably entering my Saturn Return, so that may have something to do with it. I’m getting the distinct feeling that it’s time to find a Career, and/or stop complaining and learn to love the bomb… something like that. It’s not going to be an easy process, but I’m determined to keep moving.

Any advice? Ever been in a similar situation?

LOVE-

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By trying. The coming months are going to be charged with negativity, and the universe desperately needs beacons of good will and light. I am hereby making the commitment to be a lighthouse of peace, love, and chillaxing to any and all that I meet.

Yes, I have political opinions, and I fully plan on exercising my right to vote. There are several issues which are near and dear to my heart, and I will endeavor to support them. But what I will NOT do is spew crap that won’t help anyone. I will NOT hate on people with opinions different from my own. I will try my hardest to smooth out arguments that I’m near. When the urge to get angry and bust some knowledge comes upon me, I will instead call upon the universe to extend love and understanding to anyone and everyone… especially those people who seem to think with their wallets instead of their hearts.

And the most challenging of all: I will not freak out if the election goes to the other guy. I know the country will not fall apart, the rights which are most cherished and necessary will not be stripped away (because there are enough smart people still out there, despite what TLC might be showing), and the economy will do whatever it was going to do anyway (and honestly, most of the stuff people are crazytalking about doesn’t affect me to begin with). I will wish the president-elect all the luck, strength, courage, and intelligence such an office deserves.

So, I put it to each of you: Are you willing to let the “politics” of it all go? Can you choose to be happy, no matter what? After casting your vote, would you be willing to release attachment to the outcome?

I don’t know about y’all, but I vote for ME.

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It’s distressing that the only thing in the way of our finally living together is a BED. That’s literally all we need in order to begin making this place our home, and the circumstances being what they are, that might not happen for almost 2 weeks. I am in love with this apartment, and I cannot wait to start actually operating out of it, but until we get time and money, it can’t really happen.

This summer has kinda been a lazy period for me, I haven’t been as diligent with my practices as I should be. Don’t really have much of an excuse, honestly, it’s just been too easy to come up with other things I “should” be doing. I think I need to take this current situation, and really remind myself of the positive direction my life has taken in the last year. And the waiting that I have to do at this time can be used as opportunity to contemplate the transition I’m about to go through. I’m eager to get underway, but the chance to really appreciate this before it happens will never come again.

Have you ever had to wait for something you were really excited about? Did you have any technique to help yourself get through it? Leave your comments below…

LOVE-

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This morning, I clicked on to watch my guru Gabrielle Bernstein’s weekly vlog, which then led me to watching some of her vlogs from earlier this month, one of which talked about her engagement. Her basic point in that video was how she learned to stop worrying about the future, and as a result, she was able to let go of anxiety about her relationship and just go with the flow. So, when her boyfriend proposed, it was a wonderful surprise, and something she was able to fully enjoy in the moment.

Gabby also drew comparisons to other relationships, home, and career, and how concentrating on the “content of the picture, not the frame” can be a wonderful exercise in those areas too. This hit me, thinking about my nervousness about my job, and how much I want to go full-time. The point I need to remember is that I have a job I LOVE, with great coworkers, great bosses, and good pay. And being part-time is pretty nice at times, getting to sleep in and all. So I invite all of you to see how you can use the lesson about your picture/frame to give yourself some much needed perspective.

And maybe head on over to Gabby’s website, where you can check out her vlogs and lectures. She’s so awesome.

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So here I am again, back on the horse. I wish I had something profound to say today, but it just seems to be a day of adjusting back to my old schedule, and trying to get my brain accustomed to my daily duties. It’s dragging a little bit, so that might explain my lack of brilliance today.

So, I’m reading I Am The Word, by Paul Selig. It’s a channeled text, and the language is a little… something. It’s just not STICKING in my brain. I keep stopping myself halfway down the page, realizing that I haven’t absorbed anything I just read. It requires this whole extra brain to translate what the message is, then to assimilate it into my  brain. It’s a challenging read. But I’m determined to get through it, and to learn something. DETERMINATION! LEARNING! HEADACHES!

Perhaps you can relate. Have you ever had problems getting information to stick in your head? Leave a comment below and tell me about it.

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It dawned on me last night, while out with a friend, that I haven’t written on here all week! SHAME. It’s been a bit of a hectic week for me so far, I’m covering someone at my job and so I’m working about twice as many hours. Yeah money!

I just had an interesting experience. As I said, I was out with a friend last night and… we had a bit to drink. Never has 3 glasses of wine and a beer messed me up so much. And, since I’m working extra hours, I had to be up and out of the house by 6:45. Very smart, adult decisions here, people. So yeah, when my alarm went off this morning, I knew that I was going to have a rough morning/day. I knew that I had the capacity to handle it (because really, what choice do I have?), but also that a Red Bull wouldn’t hurt.

I have learned that one should not get the 16 oz. can. 8 or 12 ounces is plenty.

Having been a constant consumer of soda products for most of my life (hooray cavities!), caffeine usually doesn’t have much of an effect on me. Unless I’m chugging a 16 oz Red Bull, then I become a husk of a human being. I recently read that caffeine itself doesn’t actually wake you up, as much as it makes you LESS CALM. So yeah, that’s totally correct.

The head boss of my company, whom it’s named after, was on the phone with me several times this morning, and while that can give me a bit of a jolt on a normal day, today, pumped full of stimulants yet battling a hangover, I was a nervous WRECK. After I assisted her, my supervisor let me take a little walk to burn off some of the excess energy. On the way, I stopped to laugh it over with my department head, and she gave me some perspective on my boss. She helped me see things from their point of view, and reminded me that they are, of course, only human.

At times, it’s easy to forget that the people in power over us are still PEOPLE. I know I’ve written before about seeing the Christ in others, but sometimes you need to be reminded! While some might be more wealthy, influential, powerful, and possibly entitled to respect and deference, at the end of the day, they are all still GOD (meaning, exactly the same as you or me). They are the same expressions of divine creativity and love, all beautiful pieces of the universe. Or, in less crunchy terms, they still have to wipe their own asses (well, maybe not the oldest of them, haha).

So today I had a lovely reminder of that fact, and a reminder of REMINDERS. Never stop learning. Good stuff.

Now excuse me while I vibrate into another dimension (literally).

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While The Secret is what got me into this new line of thinking and metaphysical learning, it is NOT perfect. It’s a great way to get your foot in the door, and obviously it can provide many great benefits to those who are open and receptive. However, it’s way too easy to take their simplified and easily digestible version of things as gospel, and miss the big picture.

For instance, one of the biggest things missing from The Secret is the second to last step in the creative process. The process, according to that film, is as follows:

1. Ask- Think clearly of what you want.

2. Believe- Know you’re going to receive it.

3. Receive- get it.

What’s missing here, and what I feel is really the biggest part, is what comes between 2 and 3: BE HAPPY ANYWAY. It’s that crucial release of control, and getting yourself into a positive vibration, that really seals the deal.

A lot of the time, it’s easy to become frustrated when you have asked and believed, but don’t receive as quickly as you want to. The Secret does address this, and pretty much says “Don’t think that way. You’ll mess it up!” I feel like it’s more thorough to say “Yeah, maybe that’s not the right thing. It’s OK to feel bummed, but HEY! Life is pretty good anyway! Maybe this is how it’s supposed to be.”

One of my favorite quotes I’ve heard since I’ve been attending my church is “This, or something better.” If you become too attached to the outcome, you can quite easily find yourself in a state of anxiety or unhappiness. One must learn how to release this expectation to truly allow results to flow to you.

Bringing it back to the Big Happy Face, sometimes people use the it as a way to prove they’re happy, or as a release itself. But the BHF itself is a form of control! It says “See? LOOK HOW HAPPY I AM! DO YOU SEE? If you believe it about me, then it MUST be true!” 

I find it can be really valuable to the soul to say “Damn, this SUCKS!” Sometimes, the only way to release fear and negativity is to FEEL it. By pushing it down and slapping a BHF on it, you’re still giving it power over your circumstances. The only way to give those feelings permission to leave you is to ALLOW them to pass through you.

Once this has happened, you might find that Big Happy Face is actually a quiet, contented, blissed out smile. And then POOF! Manifestation.

Try it, let me know what you think.

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Something weird was happening last night with WordPress on my computer, so I couldn’t post. But I’m HERE NOW!

FYI, my birthday was pretty awesome. Went to the gym, brunch, movie, shopping, KIRTAN, and a karaoke bash put together by my wonderful boyfriend. Such a great day, and the beginning to a great year. Hooray 26!

Also this weekend, I bought a pack of psychic tarot cards. I’ve been very attracted to the idea of learning how to give readings. I got an angel card reading not long ago, and this overwhelming feeling of peace and bliss settled on me in the middle of it. I just had little twinkle that said “You should look into this, this is something good.” So I went to Namaste books, and I checked out the card decks they had. There were plenty of good angel card decks, but I was drawn to the particular deck I bought because of the diversity of ways you could read them. They can be interpreted by the drawings, the descriptions, the colors, the numbers, chakras… It just seemed like I could get a really detailed reading out of this set. Plus the drawings were gorgeous, and when I handle them,  gold glitter ends up all over my fingers. I love glitter.

So I’ll be delving into getting to know these cards, and hopefully I’ll be giving out some readings to friends and family soon. I’m really excited about the opportunity to connect with the divine a little deeper.

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