Lesson #8

I was watching Sunday In The Park With George yesterday on the train home from work, and I had an interesting experience. I am very familiar with this show (obsessed might be an appropriate term), and I KNEW the song “Lesson #8″ was about to begin. I felt something akin to recognition, dread, shame, because I could immediately see the parallels between George’s life and mine. Someone with a gift, with creativity and promise, just coasting through life, KNOWING they can do/be better.

Members Only… well, not really.

This weekend I was officially inducted as a member of my church. I’ve been attending for the last 3 years or so, starting as a novice and feeling like an outsider, becoming steadily more involved in activities, and now I’m finally a fixture. As they explained to us, members are technically owners of the church. We’re shareholders, and we have a vested interest in the future of our community. I feel extremely honored to be entrusted with this gift, and can’t wait to further entrench myself in this wonderful organization.

Return to Form

I’m back. I was reading over old posts, and i could barely remember writing them. It’s been nearly a year since I started this blog, and a hell of a long time since I updated it. I’m undergoing a trial in my life right now, and I need some good juju!

 

I’m bumping up against wanting to make a radical change, while at the same time admitting certain truths about myself. Can I justify making this change if I know that chances are good that I’ll want to make a similar change again… and again… and again? Is it better to just STICK with things the way they are, and try to ride out the discomfort of my current situation? Could I BE anymore vague right now?

 

I guess it’s enough to say I’m trying to move into the next phase of my life. I’m probably entering my Saturn Return, so that may have something to do with it. I’m getting the distinct feeling that it’s time to find a Career, and/or stop complaining and learn to love the bomb… something like that. It’s not going to be an easy process, but I’m determined to keep moving.

 

Any advice? Ever been in a similar situation?

 

LOVE-

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Tell me your own Politik

We have arrived into election season. Shit just got real. It’s impossible to turn on the TV, the radio, open a browser, or just overhear a conversation on the subway without choking on someone’s political opinion. In this day and age, politics has become not only a viewpoint, but a set of reasons to get pissed off about something. I lean left on most issues (but not all). So, I hear a lot of smack about how republicans are evil old men, and it’s my uterus so get out of it, and social security medicare pell grants vomit. Of course, you have the other side spewing right to life, sanctity of marriage family values, economy obamacare THEY TOOK OUR JOBS (derk-er-DERR)! It’s painful. I just read some comments on a story on HuffPost (just the first page, by the way, of which there were at least 5), and it gave me a headache. How is anyone supposed to stay centered and calm in the middle of a shitstorm?

Almost there

It can be frustrating when you can see the direction your life is headed in, but you have to wait a little longer in order to get there. For a while now, my boyfriend and I have been planning to move in together, and we have been very excited about it. With him always working closing shifts at his job, lately I only really get to see him once or twice a week, usually around 2 or 3 in the morning before I conk out. While this won’t exactly change any time soon, at least we know that we’ll end up in the same place at night, and that’s a comforting thought. We’ve been having to put off the move a couple of times, and then we had some stress actually finding a place, but last week we finally signed the lease on a wonderful apartment… now we just have to MOVE there.

Gentle Reminders

So I just ended my side job, that I’ve had for about a year. I’m excited to have a little more of my time back, but not having the money it provided (albeit not all that much, but still, it helped) makes me a little nervous. So I’ve been trying to find out if I’ll be going full-time at my current job, and it seems like progress on that might have stalled a little bit. I haven’t been too up in arms about it, but it’s still been on my mind.

Blargh!

So, last week (and Wednesday thru friday of the week before) I was covering for someone in my department, so I had MUCHO hours and work to do. I also had plenty of time to blog, but didn’t… My apologies.

So here I am again, back on the horse. I wish I had something profound to say today, but it just seems to be a day of adjusting back to my old schedule, and trying to get my brain accustomed to my daily duties. It’s dragging a little bit, so that might explain my lack of brilliance today.

So, I’m reading I Am The Word, by Paul Selig. It’s a channeled text, and the language is a little… something. It’s just not STICKING in my brain. I keep stopping myself halfway down the page, realizing that I haven’t absorbed anything I just read. It requires this whole extra brain to translate what the message is, then to assimilate it into my  brain. It’s a challenging read. But I’m determined to get through it, and to learn something. DETERMINATION! LEARNING! HEADACHES!

Perhaps you can relate. Have you ever had problems getting information to stick in your head? Leave a comment below and tell me about it.

 

LOVE-

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So, I forgot.

Hey-

It dawned on me last night, while out with a friend, that I haven’t written on here all week! SHAME. It’s been a bit of a hectic week for me so far, I’m covering someone at my job and so I’m working about twice as many hours. Yeah money!

I just had an interesting experience. As I said, I was out with a friend last night and… we had a bit to drink. Never has 3 glasses of wine and a beer messed me up so much. And, since I’m working extra hours, I had to be up and out of the house by 6:45. Very smart, adult decisions here, people. So yeah, when my alarm went off this morning, I knew that I was going to have a rough morning/day. I knew that I had the capacity to handle it (because really, what choice do I have?), but also that a Red Bull wouldn’t hurt.

I have learned that one should not get the 16 oz. can. 8 or 12 ounces is plenty.

(Don’t) Suck It Up

A lot of people think that in order to follow New Thought and the Law of Attraction, you just have to put a big happy face on everything, and accept your circumstances no matter what. I’m pretty sure that when I first watched The Secret all those years ago, I misinterpreted that as well.

While The Secret is what got me into this new line of thinking and metaphysical learning, it is NOT perfect. It’s a great way to get your foot in the door, and obviously it can provide many great benefits to those who are open and receptive. However, it’s way too easy to take their simplified and easily digestible version of things as gospel, and miss the big picture.

Spooky

Hey guys-

Something weird was happening last night with WordPress on my computer, so I couldn’t post. But I’m HERE NOW!

FYI, my birthday was pretty awesome. Went to the gym, brunch, movie, shopping, KIRTAN, and a karaoke bash put together by my wonderful boyfriend. Such a great day, and the beginning to a great year. Hooray 26!

Also this weekend, I bought a pack of psychic tarot cards. I’ve been very attracted to the idea of learning how to give readings. I got an angel card reading not long ago, and this overwhelming feeling of peace and bliss settled on me in the middle of it. I just had little twinkle that said “You should look into this, this is something good.”